Resolve Strengthened

I wasn't very good over the weekend as I ate, though the overwhelming guilt that has come to be associated with eating is there, I couldn't seem to stop putting food into my mouth.  I finally got my resolve back in place at the end of the weekend and worked out hardcore, even though I threw up a lot of what I ate.  I have my resolve firmly back in place, and luckily the scale has gone down from when I first started back up with Ana.  I plan on stepping up my workouts, and have become quite good at lying about eating to the people around me.  I just hope that once the disgusting pounds begin to disappear and set me free that people will mind their own dam business.  I will reach my goal weight, and no one will get in my way.  I caught myself avoiding looking at several people this week because they were large, and I realized that big people are treated like their invisible, but no one avoids thin sexy people.  I see these large people, and I find it disgusting what they have allowed to happen to themselves.  I feel sorry for them as no one can be that big and be happy too.  I will not let that happen to me, I will not fade into the background.  I have come to love the feeling of my stomach being empty and every time it rumbles it's telling me how sexy I look now that food is the enemy!  The floating feeling I get from fighting food is amazing, I enjoy feeling as if I'm floating when I walk and I am excited for the day when people can't help but notice me!!!