dark days

I have been eating again which makes me mad and sad.  I lost a good friend of mine a few weeks ago and I couldn't even make it to the funeral.  This along with big changes coming in my life and constantly being lonely has made it hard for me to see the point in worrying and doing anything.  I am so tired of finding comfort in food and I just want my resolve to be strong to not eat and deal with things that way.  I can't seem to get a handle on it all, it's like a fish underwater I'll grip for a few seconds and then it slips away.  Things are spiraling out of control and I'm gaining weight and losing my enthusiasm to workout or even get through the days because it seems a bit pointless.  I will be trying to strengthen my resolve and not eat again for a few days, I'm told if I can get to day five without eating that it gets easier.  I'm aiming for five days and hope you all will be pulling for me!  Remember Ana loves us all and she will guide us to true beauty!!!  Stay strong my sisters and brothers....

I'm back

Hey everyone,

I'm so sorry i haven't been on here in so long.  It's been a very up and down couple months.  I'm back and stronger than ever.  I am up to working out three times a day...and only allowing myself to eat once a day and I'm even trying to get rid of that disgusting habit.  Hoping to see the pounds coming off my beautiful bones soon.  I need to get better at writing in here cause it helps me stay focused and on task with everything.  I'll be hitting up your blogs as well.  I have a workout scheduled to start in about six hours so i probably should wrap this up so i can sleep and not start getting cravings out of sleep deprivation.  Love you all and stay ANA STRONG!!!