Feels so good

I can feel my self control finally kicking in.  I have managed to stick to just having coffee and diet soda, while sickeningly ingesting less than 500 calories a day.  However I have been working out a minimum of two hours a day.  However that is not the point, what is the point is my self-control is getting stronger.  I can actually be around food and tell myself no, I will not put that in my mouth.  I have even been able to figure out when my body will betray me, and keep myself out of the way of food situations.  My body is super sore, but it's a good sore because it lets me know I'm finally alive.  I'm letting the skinny me take over and banishing the fat me back to the darkness.  I also feel empowered because no one can force me to eat, and no one knows what I'm using as my secret weapon to get better.  The weight hadn't been moving because my self control kept failing, however now that it is growing and becoming something that I can wrap around myself the weight is definitely coming off.  I sleep all the time anymore when I'm not working out or doing school stuff, but I know that's a good thing so that my body can recover and eat more of itself.  I feel so good, and I love the feeling of my stomach rumbling knowing I won't let the enemy control me anymore.