getting it together

Ok, so I got a good lift in today and I'm starting to get my mind back on track.  I just feel terrible because i have been eating grrr.  Just makes me feel like I'm failing at everything, I'm not even good at having ana in my life.  I will do one thing right and that is lose this disgusting weight and stop letting food control me.  I am so glad to have you all helping me with this.  I am trying to focus on all the money I'll be saving while I get thin and sexy, that way I can buy sexier clothes.  I just feel so gross, like when i eat others around me are thinking god fattie put the food down.  My friends say that I'm not fat, but there thinner than I am by far so I don't believe them.  They won't be helping in this at all.  My new  focus is to start everyday by thinking about not eating, and just take it one minute at a time.  I love when my stomach rumbles and I feel floaty cause I feel better that way.  The problem comes at night when my stomach and brain are saying how hungry I am, when I know I shouldn't be.  Anyone got some suggestions on how to stay strong all day long and string together no calorie days?

Feeling good

New Year-New Me

I haven't posted in awhile because I was gone for break and because I had to do the dreaded eating thing while around the family.  I feel really really disgusting right now, but i'm jumping back into workouts and not eating so hopefully things will be back on track for good.  I don't have must to say because I feel ashamed at my eating, but will plan on talking more as things get going.  Hope you all had a great holiday season and were stronger than me.  Stay strong :)